Vacation

I’m taking a vacation.

Could be a week. Could be a month.

I’ll be back though. *smiles*

Rest in Peace

In loving Memory of my dear adopted Grandmother….

Visual Meditation # 15

What do you see?

Gleaming

I wish you loving light that gleams into your life with color and glory…Blessings this day of sharing…

Pickalily: Yes

A song that I really love that I wanted to share. Hope you like it. I’m busy tomorrow with celebrating Yule with my family. Blessings for the new year!

Paying Attention

I’m in a philosophical mood today. This post suits my mood. I published this about a year ago now on Defining Spiritual Presence my old Blogger blog. I have nothing to add to this post, except to note that my experience of no mind has only grown deeper in the months since I posted this. I have not achieved my goal of no mind in daily life….but my viewpoint of this state of being is becoming…familiar. I mean that word in a specific way. Not familiar as in mundane, but familiar as in a magical companion. It is like a living being that rides with me through life…informing every thing. I am enjoying that learning process very much…Here’s the post:

There is a state of consciousness which Buddhists call “no mind”.

With the right supports in place, I have achieved this state of consciousness. In my daily life, I have yet to achieve that state on a daily basis, but that is my goal.

The first time I achieved that state I was standing staring at a sacred ceremony unfolding before me. I was looking at a tree that seemed to be an awakened being that was receiving the power of life through it as dancers made patterns of rhythmic movements in concert with one another surrounding that beautiful tree. They were praying for help and health for all life…the drum beat… Whistles blew…and my body was moving rhythmically in place in support of the dancers. My breath came in slow pants in pace with my feet….and the drum…and the whistles.

I stopped thinking of hunger and thirst. I stopped thinking of my back and legs aching. I stopped thinking of my feet being cold in the mud. I stopped thinking of anything, but the focus of moving in the moment and the unspoken fervent wish for healing for those that needed it. Nothing else passed through my mind. I just moved and silently wished…

I can still feel my gaze in that moment. It felt like a stream of power flowed out of my eyes, that saw the heart of anything it glanced over. It felt like my heart was connected to the heart of the universe and that I was simply a beat in it…one beat was my life time….and it was long enough. It felt like I was a part of the air around me…as if I were transparent and it passed through me…that it was breathing me, not me breathing it. I felt as if the light was dancing inside me…burning away whatever I didn’t need…giving life to seeds for the future for me….germinating them. I felt as if a song was being sung through my soul…something I’d never heard more clearly…I was in a state of receptiveness that measured life only in the present seconds and had no attachment to the last or the next.

It was a state of being. Just being. No attachment except to wishing for healing and being open to being used by that healing as it needed to answer the prayers…

That was not the last time I’ve had such a moment…but it was the most intense experience of it so far…

This series of perfect moments have informed every moment of my life since then. I changed in those moments. In those moments love became the most important thing in my life and I began to make a study of it…as I started to describe in a post yesterday.

Still…it is hard to know just what else has changed in me that I have yet to notice or understand…experiencing something like that isn’t something that can be put into a box, nor described in it’s full exquisite detail. It is not a spectator event. What happened in me might be similar to what others experience but neither I nor anyone else will ever experience just what I did in those moments again. They were unique to the exact events and consciousness of the moments.

I have great gratitude that I paid attention.